The Shape of Being Known

On the cost of compression and the beauty of being known slowly

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This is how my mind works: something I’m experiencing now reaches back and touches something older. Lately, that something has been why Prince changed his name to a symbol.

Not as a theory. More as a quiet recognition that keeps returning.

I don’t feel this impulse in my name, exactly. I feel it in the compressed ways modern life asks us to be known.

Autistic. AuDHD. Traumatized. Gifted. Parent. Spouse. Daughter. Friend. Accountant.

Each one reaches toward recognition. Each one carries something true. And still, none of them feel like me.

When I reach for one of these compressed ways of being known, I often feel a small settling at first. A sense of orientation. Relief, sometimes. Like we’ve agreed on where to begin. The room gets quieter. I’m less likely to be misunderstood right away.

And then, almost imperceptibly, something tightens.

It’s not that these ways of being known are wrong. It’s that, sometimes, they start doing the meeting for us.

We are tired. Many of us, shaped by real and accumulating strain. All of this unfolding while the world burns around us in uneven and unequal ways.

When time and capacity are scarce, we don’t often encounter each other slowly enough for understanding to emerge through presence and repetition and change. So, we reach for compression. A way to be known quickly. A way to be held without asking too much.

These strategies are necessary. I don’t want to pretend otherwise.

But they can also narrow what’s possible.

There are parts of us that don’t translate cleanly into public space. Not because they are unclear, but because they require presence and time. Time without a calendar in the background or a clock quietly counting down.

These parts emerge when there is space to linger. When no one is waiting for a conclusion. When understanding is allowed to form through shared presence rather than performance. In those conditions, we adjust to one another slowly, almost without noticing, through tone, pacing, and response.

That kind of time is increasingly rare. So what we offer instead are fragments. Not because we are fragmented, but because the container can’t hold the whole. What survives is what can be named quickly. What doesn’t is often what mattered most.

I think this is also why in-person meetings and social engagements can be draining for me, even when the people involved are kind and the intention is good. It isn’t the presence that costs me. It’s the compression.

So much of our social interaction begins without context. Small talk, especially, asks for connection without grounding. There’s no shared history yet, no continuity, no sense of what the interaction is attached to. It’s shallow by design, meant to move quickly, to signal safety or politeness before moving on.

My system doesn’t orient that way. I don’t enter connection through surface cues. I enter through context. Through pattern. Through meaning that has somewhere to land. When that context is missing, I’m left doing a lot of translation work just to stay present.

When connection is structured around speed instead of context, that internal mismatch becomes visible.

We arrive already oriented to roles. Already aware of how much time we have before the next thing. There’s a subtle pressure to be recognizable quickly, to arrive as something understandable before the moment moves on. There isn’t much quiet, expansive space for relationship to settle. Without that space, connection becomes effortful. Not because it’s wrong, but because it’s happening faster than my system can soften into it.

What drains me isn’t being with people. It’s being with people inside structures that don’t allow time to stretch, presence to deepen, or understanding to arrive gradually.

This is where the symbol starts to make sense to me. Or maybe glyph is the better word. Something that holds meaning without asking to be reduced to language.

A glyph doesn’t explain. It doesn’t summarize. It doesn’t offer itself up for sorting. It has shape without definition. It asks to be met rather than interpreted.

When Prince stepped into a glyph, it never felt to me like he was disappearing. It felt like he was protecting something alive. Something that couldn’t survive being flattened into language, especially language designed to categorize, own, and manage.

I feel that same instinct now. Not to reject these compressed forms entirely. I still use them. They help me find others. They help others find me.

But I’m able to notice their edges again, without turning away.

These compressed ways of being known can open the door.

They just can’t replace the meeting.

A glyph doesn’t solve this entirely. I’m not claiming to be one. I’m saying that zooming out from compression slows the categorization down. It creates a pause long enough to remember that there is more here than any word can hold.

I’m trusting that knowing again, now that I can see how often I was responding to external demands instead of my own nature.

And trusting that this, too, counts as being known.