Designing Work That Doesn’t Hurt
Reimagining leadership for neurodivergent minds and human hearts.
I’m breaking from my memoir timeline today. Most of what I’ve written so far has been about how I got to the point of burnout recovery as a late-diagnosed autistic professional, and how masking, perfectionism, and misplaced loyalty led me straight into collapse. But this piece is something I wish I’d had when I was in the thick of it.
I couldn’t have written this when I was in it. I didn’t yet have the language or the distance. This is the information I wish I’d had, the framework that might have made sense of my collapse before it became total. Maybe it can be that for someone else.
When my memoir project is complete, I’ll likely use this space differently. It will become a place for reflection, neurodivergent advocacy, leadership, autism and trauma, and a few of my other obsessions like Dungeons and Dragons, story, and the strange intersections of work and being human. For now, this essay feels like something that needed to be said aloud.
I’m still rebuilding. I’m still living with what I hope is temporary skill loss, reduced cognitive stamina, and the humbling reality that recovery is not linear. But when I’m back to full power, I intend to use everything I’ve learned, both in finance and in survival, to make the path easier for those who come next. I’m still on the bridge, but I can see the other side now.
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Incorporating undiagnosed autism into the executive burnout dynamic introduces a layer of complexity that most leadership frameworks miss. It helps explain why traditional stress reduction strategies often fail, why recovery feels impossible, and why exhaustion runs so deep.
For many high-achieving autistic adults, especially those who spent decades undiagnosed, the same traits that fueled success also accelerated collapse. Masking, perfectionism, sensory overload, and relentless self-monitoring built invisible strain over years, until the nervous system itself began to collapse under the weight of adaptation. Autistic burnout has been defined and studied extensively (Raymaker et al., 2020) building on earlier work describing the toll of chronic masking and social invalidation (Kapp et al., 2019).
This isn’t ordinary burnout. It’s the body saying enough after a lifetime of translating oneself into a language that was never our own.
It’s important to note that not all neurodivergent people experience trauma or have comorbid complex PTSD. There are no official statistics on this overlap, but within neurodivergent communities, many estimate it to be high. Research on minority stress among autistic adults supports these observations (Botha & Frost, 2020), and current summaries of autism-and-trauma research highlight similar themes (Kerns, 2025).
The reasons are understandable: increased vulnerability to bullying, social victimization, and abuse; sensory processing differences that can turn ordinary environments into sources of distress; the chronic stress and invalidation of living in a world built for neurotypical norms; and the cumulative impact of masking and suppressing natural traits, which is inherently taxing and often traumatic over time.
Living as an unidentified autistic or AuDHD adult often means doing life on hard mode and not understanding why. Every environment, interaction, and expectation requires extra steps of translation and self-regulation that others don’t see. Work life, in particular, can feel like hard mode on top of hard mode: constant context switching, unspoken social rules, and sensory or cognitive strain that never truly ends. The effort to keep up becomes invisible labor, often mistaken for resilience or dedication when it is really survival.
The Amplifiers Behind Autistic Burnout
Masking
Masking is what happens when showing up as yourself doesn’t feel safe. It is the quiet, constant work of translating every part of who you are into something more acceptable. In a boardroom, that might mean holding steady eye contact when it feels like a spotlight, forcing small talk when silence would feel more natural, or keeping your hands still when movement would bring relief. Even in remote settings, masking doesn’t go away. It just moves online.
Over Zoom, autistic professionals often spend entire meetings scanning faces for clues, mirroring smiles, adjusting tone, and performing attentiveness for the sake of perception. Every second of self-monitoring costs energy. And for those still undiagnosed, it might never occur to them that they could simply turn the camera off or that asynchronous collaboration could be an accommodation. They have been taught that professionalism means visibility, even when that visibility is harmful. Sometimes this expectation is written directly into company policy or implied as early as the job posting or interview, long before the work even begins.
Masking can also mean softening your natural communication style. Many autistic people have a direct way of speaking, built for clarity rather than convention. In most workplaces, that honesty can be misread as coldness or criticism. So, they learn to translate again, rounding the edges of their words, cushioning feedback, or checking tone mid-sentence to make others comfortable. That constant internal editing becomes its own kind of fatigue.
For many neurodivergent executives, competence has always been the currency of belonging. It’s how inclusion was earned and maintained. Keeping that perception of competence intact often depends on sustained masking, on never letting the cracks show, no matter the cost.
Cognitive Overload
Remote work can ease sensory discomfort by removing fluorescent lights and background chatter, but it often increases cognitive demand. Endless context switching between Slack, email, video calls, and task platforms keeps the brain in constant gear-shifting mode.
For autistic and AuDHD professionals, this isn’t just tiring; it can create cognitive overload that directly affects focus, memory, and regulation. It should be treated as an accessibility consideration, not a personal failing. Allowing individuals to design their own schedules and workflows around their responsibilities—establishing predictable meeting windows, protecting focus time, and setting communication norms that apply consistently to everyone—can make work sustainable without reducing productivity. These are not special privileges. They are examples of good management and universal design.
“Let’s just meet quick to discuss it” might sound harmless to a neurotypical colleague. For a neurodivergent leader, it can dismantle an entire day’s pacing. Carefully built focus blocks collapse. Processing flow disappears. Anxiety spikes. Many autistic and AuDHD professionals process new information more slowly at first. Once it is integrated, recall is sharp and insight comes easily, but that initial learning window is sacred. Without it, the nervous system scrambles for footing.
Sometimes a quick answer really is necessary, but written communication is often the more efficient path. It allows time for processing, reflection, and documentation, which prevents confusion later. Yet in many organizations, quick chats are still favored over written follow-up, especially by leaders who equate immediacy with effectiveness. What often gets lost is the record—the shared clarity that keeps work from looping back on itself. What feels efficient in the moment often isn’t. Without documentation, spoken-word efficiency is just a mirage.
Being put on the spot is another hidden strain. Professional culture often equates quick responses with competence, but for many neurodivergent leaders, processing takes time. The expectation to perform speed rather than thought is deeply ableist. Many of us never learned how to say, “Give me a few minutes to think,” or “Can you send me the details in writing?” We never learned we could ask for the structural supports we needed.
These small adjustments—advance meeting agendas, written follow-up, consistent meeting windows, AI-generated notes, and space for reflection—can make the difference between sustainable focus and total exhaustion. They are not only accommodations for a few, but evidence-based practices that improve communication, efficiency, and equity for all. Without awareness or structure, these supports rarely exist. The result is unseen cognitive juggling layered on top of years, sometimes decades of overcompensation. It isn’t merely fatigue; it is complete depletion of both body and mind.
Executive Dysfunction and Emotional Regulation
Autistic and AuDHD leaders often describe inconsistent access to executive functioning: difficulty starting tasks, switching contexts, estimating time, or regulating emotions during stress. The higher the role, the harder this hits. The executive who once thrived on precision and control now finds those strengths collapsing without warning.
Work life often expects people to be less human, to hold emotion in, to perform calm under pressure, to separate feeling from function. But for many neurodivergent professionals, emotional regulation challenges are part of their disability. The messages that emotion is unprofessional, or vulnerability is weakness hit harder and cut deeper. They push us to mask even more intensely, suppressing natural emotional responses in favor of composure that looks credible to others but costs us dearly. Each layer of suppression adds to the cognitive load, leaving less capacity for everything else.
The result is shame layered on top of exhaustion. High-functioning professionals who have built careers on competence begin to question their worth entirely. Research shows that autistic adults experience suicidal thoughts at rates several times higher than the general population (Nyrenius et al., 2023) and have a suicide mortality rate markedly higher than non-autistic peers (Hirvikoski et al., 2016). It is not weakness. It is the cost of living in systems built for instant translation, where every pause for processing is mistaken for incompetence instead of depth.
How Autistic Burnout Differs
Traditional burnout usually responds to rest and workload reduction. Autistic burnout does not. It is a deeper nervous system shutdown that can involve temporary loss of previously mastered skills, communication difficulties, or increased sensory sensitivity. It often includes a sudden inability to mask, because masking drains cognitive resources so quickly. The behaviors and coping strategies that once allowed an autistic person to blend in or perform professionalism can simply fall away, leaving the underlying exhaustion fully exposed and the person suddenly without the protection of their mask. The loss of that shield is disorienting and raw, a kind of exposure that feels almost physical in its pain.
At times, this collapse can also surface as a meltdown, a moment when the nervous system enforces boundaries the person could no longer hold internally. To outsiders it may look like anger or aggression, but in truth it is an involuntary release, the body’s way of saying no more when words or self-restraint are no longer possible. In a professional context, this loss of composure can feel devastating, yet it is not defiance. It is a physiological threshold being crossed, and what is needed in that moment is empathy, not reprimand.
For many autistic and AuDHD professionals, this is the point where everything changes. Some find themselves suddenly unemployed, their exhaustion mistaken for insubordination or instability. Others begin to recognize, often for the first time, that what they are experiencing has a name. For those who have lived for years without understanding their neurotype, this becomes the beginning of learning, language, and self-compassion, the moment when survival starts to give way to awareness.
When both forms of burnout overlap, as they often do for undiagnosed autistic adults, the result is profound. Even with fewer demands, the nervous system may remain in collapse, unable to regulate or recover in the ways most people expect. It is not just tiredness or stress. It is a full-body insistence on stillness.
What is often mistaken for depression or fatigue is, in truth, the body enforcing boundaries that the mind refused to.
The Path to Recovery
For executives or leaders with undiagnosed autism, healing begins not with productivity hacks but with understanding of one’s own brain, boundaries, and needs. While formal evaluation can bring clarity, access is often limited and costly, leaving many adults, especially those over the age of forty or from marginalized communities, to find understanding through research, reflection, and peer connection. Self-identification is valid and often the only available path.
Even with that awareness, unmasking is not simple. Many autistic professionals must weigh psychological safety against the risk of stigma, altered treatment, or misunderstanding before choosing to disclose or request support. Disclosure can shift how colleagues or leaders perceive competence, reliability, or authority, regardless of performance. Workplaces vary widely in their willingness to adapt, and some environments remain openly resistant to change, leaving the burden of accommodation on the individual rather than the organization.
Recovery also depends on learning to rest, a privilege for many and a skill that often must be relearned after years of tying worth to output. Reconnecting with sensory and emotional needs helps rebuild a regulated baseline, allowing space to unmask, stim, or follow natural rhythms without apology. When remote workplaces do make space for difference, through clear written expectations, predictable communication, flexible hours, or camera-optional meetings, the strain eases and capacity returns.
Ultimately, recovery is not about returning to the masked self but about meeting the authentic one that has been hidden beneath performance and allowing that person to lead.
Toward a Human First Redesign of Work
When workplaces learn to accommodate neurodivergent leaders, everyone benefits.
The same practices that reduce cognitive strain for autistic professionals, structured communication, predictable meeting cadence, and respect for focus time, also strengthen the foundations of good business. With planning, transparency, and steady alignment to shared goals, change can happen without chaos. When structure and clarity guide the process, progress becomes predictable instead of disruptive.
Even in a profit-first culture, the almighty profit does not have to suffer for people to be treated well. When employees know exactly what is expected of them and why, the results are almost always positive. They feel included, engaged, and invested in the outcome. People do their best work when they can see the purpose behind it and when they are trusted to contribute to how that purpose is achieved.
Nothing about us, without us is more than a disability rights slogan. It is a sound business principle. Removing agency from people, whether through opaque decision-making, inconsistent communication, or last-minute changes, breeds confusion and resentment. It is also, quite simply, cruel and unnecessary. It needs to stop.
Sometimes difficult business decisions must be made. But even hard news can be delivered with honesty, care, respect, and empathy for the human being on the other end. Transparency, context, and humane communication preserve dignity. When leaders practice this kind of relational accountability, people stay engaged even when the decisions themselves are difficult.
Neurodiversity advocacy is not just about inclusion. It is a blueprint for better business planning, stronger accountability, and workplaces where people can thrive instead of endure.
Today’s corporate culture still rewards endurance over empathy, output over wellbeing. While recent labor-market shifts have given some employers more leverage, with more job seekers than jobs and less pressure to evolve, the evidence remains clear that human-first organizations perform better on every meaningful metric, including innovation, retention, profitability, and trust (Gallup, 2024) (MIT Sloan, 2022) (Bellet et al., 2019) (McKinsey & Company, 2023).
At the same time, artificial intelligence is reshaping the landscape of white-collar work. Tasks once considered uniquely human—analysis, communication, writing, design—are now being partially automated or used to train machine-learning models that mirror human cognition. In leadership, this demands a reckoning with purpose and ethics.
Efficiency alone can no longer define success. In finance, automation offers productivity gains but introduces new liabilities, including bias, opacity, and the loss of institutional knowledge when too much is delegated to systems that do not understand context. In marketing and communications, AI can scale content but cannot create trust, empathy, or nuance, the qualities that build authentic connection. At the structural level, companies must also confront how easily human expertise becomes invisible training data, extracted and repackaged without recognition or consent. The challenge for leaders is not whether to adopt AI but how to integrate it without hollowing out the very humanity their organizations depend on.
The future of leadership will belong to those who design for brains and bodies, not roles.
Only once in my career have I worked in a place where my own agency was consistently crossed or removed entirely, so I realize this makes me fortunate. I hope it remains the only time, but I see this trend growing in the working world. When I look back, I see that the culture built there was built by me for everyone else except me, because I was never my own boss. More organizations are moving farther away from being human first, and it is breaking more people every day.
I see clearly how many of the systems around us are moving in the wrong direction. The pressures of profit-first culture, chronic overwork, and performative inclusion are eroding trust and wellbeing everywhere. But I am choosing to focus on what better could look like, not just on what has gone wrong.
We all share a responsibility to protect one another from systems that normalize harm and to build environments, at work and beyond, where people can thrive instead of merely survive. Building workplaces with this in mind is not only good business. It is part of building a society that values care, equity, and collective wellbeing. It is not enough to agree with this sentiment. Each of us has the power to take small, deliberate steps in this direction within our own lives and careers, wherever possible.
I want to be part of the solution, not contribute to the problem. I believe structure and empathy can coexist. I believe accountability and compassion can live side by side. I believe that when we design work around what people actually need to thrive—clarity, purpose, rest, and respect—we all do better.
This pause is for anyone who has been praised for resilience when what they really needed was understanding, empathy, and rest.
More soon.
Author’s Note & Resources
This essay includes discussion of autistic burnout and suicidal thoughts among autistic and neurodivergent adults. If you are in crisis or experiencing thoughts of self-harm, please reach out for support. You are not alone, and your pain is not a personal failure.
In the United States, you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline (24/7, free, confidential).
If you are outside the U.S., find international hotlines at findahelpline.com, which lists country-specific numbers worldwide.
For neurodivergent-specific peer spaces, communities such as Neurodivergent Insights, Autistic Women & Nonbinary Network (AWN), and The Autistic Self Advocacy Network (ASAN) provide resources, validation, and community care.
If you are an executive or professional recovering from autistic burnout, consider seeking a neurodiversity-affirming therapist or coach—someone trained to support regulation, pacing, and sensory recovery rather than performance.
Recovery is possible. Rest is not weakness. Understanding what your brain needs is a form of strength.
References
Note: Some of the peer-reviewed studies listed below are paywalled, but all include free abstracts or open-access summaries. Whenever possible, I’ve linked to accessible versions or university summaries.
Raymaker, D. M. et al. (2020). “Having all of your internal resources exhausted beyond measure…” Autism in Adulthood. Abstract available on PubMed. (Peer-reviewed, abstract accessible; full article paywalled.)
Kapp, S. K. et al. (2019). “Deficit, difference, or both? Autism and neurodiversity.” Autism. Abstract available on PubMed. (Peer-reviewed, paywalled full text.)
Botha, M., & Frost, D. M. (2020). Extending the minority stress model to understand mental health problems experienced by the autistic population. Society and Mental Health, 10(1), 20–34. Abstract available via SAGE Journals. (Peer-reviewed; full text paywalled, open-access author version available at UCL Discovery).
Kerns (2025). “Autism and Trauma: Research Updates.” Open-access overview. (Open access; curated summary of current research.)
Nyrenius et al. (2023). “Autism in adult psychiatric out-patients: self-reported suicidal ideation, suicide attempts and non-suicidal self-injury.” BJPsych Open, 9, e167, 1–9. doi: 10.1192/bjo.2023.553. Full article open access (PDF). (Peer-reviewed, open access.)
Hirvikoski, T. et al. (2016). “Premature mortality in autism spectrum disorder.” The British Journal of Psychiatry. Abstract available on PubMed. (Peer-reviewed; abstract accessible, full text paywalled.)
Gallup (2024). The Importance of Employee Recognition: Low Cost, High Impact (originally published 2016, revised 2024). Full article open access. (Open access corporate research summary.)
Sull, D., Sull, C., & Zweig, B. (2022). “Toxic Culture Is Driving the Great Resignation.” MIT Sloan Management Review. Full article open access. (Open access.)
Bellet, C., De Neve, J-E., & Ward, G. (2019). Does Employee Happiness Have an Impact on Productivity? Saïd Business School Working Paper 2019-13. Available at SSRN. (Peer-reviewed working paper; full text open access.)
McKinsey & Company (2023). Performance management that puts people first. Full article open access. (Open access.)
AI and Labor-Market References
Pew Research Center (2023). Which U.S. workers are more exposed to AI on their jobs? Full article open access. (Open-access data summary.)
World Economic Forum (2025). How AI is reshaping the career ladder, and other trends in jobs and skills on Labour Day. Full article open access. (Open access; global employer survey and analysis.)
Harvard Gazette (2025). Will your job survive AI? Full article open access. (Open-access interview with Harvard labor economists.)
ABC News (2025). AI risks ‘broken’ career ladder for college graduates, some experts say. Full article open access. (Open-access news report summarizing expert commentary.)
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